Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Random Tuesdayness - This One's Truly Random

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It's Tuesday and time for Random Tuesdayness (aka, Random Tuesday Thoughts). If you want to play, go visit The Un Mom for all the rules and regulations because, frankly, I'm sick of telling you about it!

Remember how I went to the Arts Festival over the weekend? Well we ended up parking in this really shady parking garage. It was around the back of the building and then underground as well. It totally reminded me of the opening rave scene in Blade where everyone was dancing and then the blood bath started. Creepy. But we made it out alive!

I had a meeting at 8 this morning. I got to the office, walked halfway to the building and then realized the meeting was downtown. I felt like a tool. And I was 30 minutes late.

Noelle and I saw a man running across State Street (I think) in nothing but running shorts late on Saturday night. We always see the strangest, most random shit while driving at night.
While I was watching Auri's kids on Sunday night I happened to look out her front window and saw a man riding bike pulling lawnmower behind him. Steering the bike with one hand, pulling the mower with the other. This picture isn't it (obvi) but it paints a picture...

Results from my sex poll: What is your favorite posish?
Missionary: 7
Spooning: 6
Cowgirl: 6
Doggie: 7
Reverse Cowgirl: 2
Other: 2 - If you chose "other" you have to leave a comment and share! Now own up ladies and gents!!!

Dark meat chicken is disgusting. They should only make white meat chickens... wow, that sounds really racist! I just don't like it.... it's gross.

On my way home from grabbing lunch yesterday I saw a man and woman walking up 21st south in their bathing suits and nothing else. I sure as hell wouldn't be walking around in next to nothing. These people were middle aged and didn't have what I'd call smokin' hot bods!
The Black Eyed Peas' new album rocks! I love it. I bought the 2 disc edition from Target and it's fabulous. My only complaint is that there are some things that are bleeped out and others that aren't. I'm wondering if it's that way because it's the Target version? Anyone know?

Lyrics from track #8: Ring A Ling
Honey, I, oh I, I got somethin' for ya, baby
'Cause if I'm callin' at 2 in the mornin'
It only means one thing, baby

'Cause my phone go ring a ling a ling, ling
Ring a ling a ling, ling, ring a ling, a ling, ling
Ring a ling a ling, ling, ring a ling
Hello, hello, hello, hello, hello

Then the girls want ding a ling a ling, ling
Ding a ling a ling, lind, dina a ling a ling, ling
Ding a ling a ling, ling, ding a ling
Dam, dam, dang a lang

I decided I really want a metallic pink beach cruiser. Anyone want to donate to my cause? I will totally take donations here people!

Have I ever mentioned I have OCD? Only in relation to certain things... but it's getting worse as I get older!

Remember the "prize" I won on Earth Day from Eden Fantasys? Well I finally tried it out... and guess what? I love it! I would definitely recommend a glass *ahem* to anyone. When discussing it over coffee with Rose and Noelle a few weeks ago, Rose once again expressed her concern about it breaking, shattering, getting dented... Noelle then replied, "It would take an act of nature, God, Congress and the Catholic Churh to dent a glass dildo."

Is it weird that I dream about my ex a lot? It's starting to drive me crazy! I had a pretty hot and steamy dream about Vince from Entourage the other night. Can't wait 'til the show starts!

I officially love Proactiv. I think I should become its new spokeswoman. The stuff is working wonders on my skin and I'm in awe. Yes it is pricey, but totally worth it in my opinion!

And as always, some RPattz eye candy for the girls! FYI - 143 days until New Moon comes out!!!

Monday, June 29, 2009

I Spent HOW MUCH on Glasses?

Once again I'm plagued with having a lot of things to talk about and then can't remember anything when I sit down to write. I've actually started keeping a list. I got this cute little notebook to keep in my purse and I pull it out every time (almost) that I think of something (e.g., grocery list, blog ideas, poll ideas, things to do, etc). Anyway, prepare yourselves for another fairly random post... Or at least, my weekend in a nutshell!On Friday night Noelle and I planned on going to the Utah Arts Festival in Salt Lake, but the weather had other plans for us. Auri ended up getting called off work at the last minute so she was able to join us... By the time we met her at her house it was clear that being outdoors was not in our best interests that evening. We ended up going to the Bayou for some dinner and a couple of beers. We had a good time chillin'.... I tried some Peroni beer (not Pepperoni!) and liked it a lot... and that was about it!


Saturday turned out to be gorgeous... sun shining, no clouds, and more importantly, no rain. It was a little on the HOT side, but I'll take it!
My mom and I ran a few errands (as we do on Saturdays) and went to look at a few townhomes. There is a development out by Daybreak that I looked at a while back but I couldn't remember what it was I didn't like, so we decided to go back. I need to put a book together of all the brochures so I can keep track of all the information.

We went to look at a little development in Murray and I totally fell in love with it. I'd share pics with you, but I forgot the name of the place... so I'll show you tomorrow. The best thing about it is the upgrades are pretty minimal and are things I wouldn't care about anyway. It's got 3 bedrooms and 2.5 baths and is 2 levels. It's at the top of my price range, but I think we (i.e., Dad) can make it work. I'll keep y'all posted.

That night we ended up going to the Arts Festival (Noelle, Maddie & I) and had a lot of fun. I saw some glasses I liked at one of the glass blowers' booths and decided if I didn't find any others I liked better, I'd go back to buy them... so I did. I spent $70 on two hand blown drinking glasses, but they're awesome! I'll take a pic of them tonight and share tomorrow. I look at them as my first investment for my new home. I also bought a pair of earrings that are totally funky, and I love them!

Yesterday I went up to Ogden with Noelle and Maddie to visit Noelle's parents. Their house is sooo cute and they are adorable. When we got back, I went to give my grandma her shot and then headed over to Auri's house to watch the naughty monkeys. Aidan informed me multiple times that I'm not the boss of him, Taryn watched Indiana Jones, and Tristan & I played Battleship. It was quite the eventful evening.
Last night I watched the 3rd episode of True Blood and the series premiere of Hung. Season 2 of True Blood is great, but I was a little let down by Hung. I'll have to "hang" in there (that was obnoxious) and see what the rest of the series brings. Can I just tell you how much I love Jessica (the new vampire)!? She's fab... I love her attitude and can't wait to see what they're going to do with her! And can I just say I'm pissed that next weekend HBO is NOT showing new episodes!? I have to wait 2 effing weeks for more! Ugh!

Friday, June 26, 2009

I'm A Lobster!!!

I sat out at the pool for a couple of hours yesterday and ***stupidly*** didn't wear any sunscreeen. I'm paying for it now. I'm a lobster. Arms, chest and legs... ouch! I'm carrying a bottle of spray-on aloe with lidocaine in it... I'm so dumb!

Congrats Lindsay & Jason!

Two weekends ago I had the privilege of attending Lindsay's Bachelorette Party. I met Noelle at her place and then Lindsay and her fiancee, Jason picked us up. Jason drove us girls out to Kristen's house to meet some of the other party members and then we all went to dinner at Fratelli's.
After dinner (which wasn't that great, Sorry, Kristen) we went to the bar/dance club which happens to be the old Sandy's Station. It's now called Club Allure, and it's surprisingly not too bad inside. I went in expecting the worst and we had a great time instead.
We drank and danced and drank some more. I think Jen was three-sheets-to-the-wind about halfway through the night and it was awesome (she's new to the world of alcohol). After the club, we all got rides home (except me, b/c my car was at Noelle's) and I'd like to say Thanks! to all of our DDs. (I sobered up and drove home later on.)
The following weekend was the wedding and I was very excited to have been invited. Noelle and Kristen helped Lindsay get ready and I just kind of hung around and helped out. The ceremony was short and sweet and the weather was perfect that day... the only day that week it didn't rain!
We had so much fun at the reception. The company was great. The food was good. The entertainment was fabulous! We all had a blast!
So, Congratulations to Lindsay & Jason! I wish you two nothing but the best!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The Hangover, SYTYCD, and Your Mom

Y'all are getting another totally random post today cuz I've got a lot of crap on my mind. Actually, it's more that I have a lot of small items to mention that won't require an entire post, so I'll throw them all together instead.

Yesterday was a totally crazy day... I had to make a list of everything I needed to accomplish because I couldn't remember it all... And I had to make sure it all got done. I am happy to report that I was able to cross them all off the list! Here it is:

*Mop the floor *Conference call *Return Dad's gift *Exchange faulty hair products *Refill prescriptions *Work *House hunt with Cathy *Work out *Buy Proactiv
I started mopping the floor at 8 PM and finished by 8:30, then had to dash out of the house to make it to the mall in time before it closed (the Proactiv kiosk is at the mall). I couldn't go another night without some semblance of hope for my naughty skin. It's seriously disgusting. I bought the starter pack of Proactiv and got the oil-free moisturizer with it. I seriously wanted to go straight home to wash my face and start my skin regimen but had to go to the gym first. I can honestly say that my skin feels really soft this morning. It hasn't cleared up, but that's not going to happen overnight. I think it even looked a little brighter and smoother after I did the mask and everything last night. It could also be the placebo effect, I guess I'll never know. I'll let you know how things shape up over the next few weeks.

Hmmm... what else? It's really irritating to me that I have like 900 gazillion things I want to mention, and when I sit down to write... nothing. It's so annoying! So I've started writing things down, but the stuff I have is for more significant posts and the stuff I was originally thinking about is much less exciting. One-liners, really.Oh, now I remember... I went to see The Hangover with Auri on Tuesday night. Oh. My. Hell! Tigers, chickens, naked Asian men, Roofies and a whole slew of other crap and you've got yourself a fantastically hilarious movie! We actually missed the first 10 or 15 minutes so I'll have to go see it again. Also due to the fact that I missed a lot of the dialogue because I was laughing so hard. Anyone? Anyone? By the way, does the dude on the left remind anyone of the picture of Auri the morning we went for brunch at the Bellagio?
SYTYCD was on last night and I went home and watched the TiVo'd version after the gym. I skipped most of the judges commentary, but since my friend Candace said Toni Basil sucked (one of the judges) I didn't feel too bad skipping it. Plus it was late and I didn't have excess amounts of time to watch all of the gratuitous fluff. I think my favorite dance of the night was Randi and Evan's Mia Michaels' Butt Dance. Like the judges said, only Mia can take something so insignificant (like a tushie) and turn it into a number that everyone will talk about for weeks! I can't find the video of it for you, but check it out if you can find it! Or come over and watch it on my TiVo!

I have to make dinner tonight and have no idea what to make. I'll be using chicken... any chicken recipes? I need them sooner than later!

I've only made it to the gym once this week, but am planning on going tonight and possibly tomorrow. I took a book with me last night and the bike ride went by surprisingly fast. I've got a lot of books I want to read this summer, so I think I'll kill two birds with one stone. Read and work out. Good plan! I'm currently in the middle of Eclipse (for the 2nd time) and Secret Diary of a Call Girl. I bought one of Jillian Michaels' books last year and have yet to read it. I'm adding that to my list as well. Guess I better find it first. I'll let you know how it is.

By the way, I really want to go see Transformers 2. Anyone care to join me in the next few days? I'm in movie mode right now... I'm not sure why. And why the hell is it so damn expensive to go to a movie... sheesh!

I went house hunting with my realtor and my dad yesterday. We only saw two places and neither of them were totally great. However, we did end up going back to look at the townhomes I looked at a few months ago in South Jordan. They're way over my budget but in a really great location. My dad is going to help me with a down payment, and if we can combine that with all of the tax credits and possible grants, I might be able to make it work. I still think I'd rather go with something a bit less expensive and work from there. That way my parents won't have to help me with as much down and my payments will be lower. I might go back out to look at Daybreak. Who knows... house hunting is so frustrating!

Ok, that's enough bitching for now. Gotta head out... I've got a doc appointment and then I'm going to sit at the pool for an hour with Noelle! After that, it's work work work, and mabye some more blogging!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I was going to title this one "Utah Weather" but this is weird, even for Utah!

The trip to San Francisco was cold and rainy. The trip to San Diego was also rainy, but not so cold. Ever since we returned from San Diego, it hasn't stopped raining. Here are some pictures of the park across the street from my house. Keep in mind the park was designed to act as a retention pond in the event of heavy rain and flooding, but holy hell, I've never seen it that full in the 29 years I've lived in this neighborhood! It usually drains after a short while. This time, it was flooded on multiple days for most of the day!That sign says "Park Closed; No Swimming: Health Hazard, Drowning Hazard" - Not the pool, the park!
This is taken from my front yard looking down into the park. The first pond there is in the parking lot and the pools beyond it are in the grass.
This one is a closer look of the parking lot with water flowing over the sidewalk and down the hill into the grass. I don't know who those people were but their dog was loving it.
Again from the same spot, looking more to the south. The drain on that side was clogged and water was running down the walking path.
The yellow thing on the far right is a Sandy City Worker standing in the pond. The water was up to his waist.

Finally, this week the weather has finally shaped up. The park is all dried out!
And this is a shot of my sunny backyard this afternoon!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Random Tuesdayness - Yeah, That One...

randomtuesdayIt's kind of strange for me to realize that I've been MIA from my blog since last Thursday. That's like 5 days, or something... Anyway, it's Tuesday and I figured I better get my ass in gear and do my obligatory Random Tuesday Thoughts post and get back on the wagon. If you want to play, grab Keely's button and join in the fun!

In my defense, I did start another blog (the weight loss blog) so that should redeem my faults a little bit, at least... even if I've only posted a welcome letter! Oh, and if you want to read it and I haven't sent you an invite, just make sure you let me know and that I have your email address.

Hmmm.... I'm working from home this week and love it. Except for the fact that I have to force myself to leave the house in order to get anything accomplished. Yeah, I got up today, ate breakfast, and then took a nap. I hate when I do that! Oh well, water under the bridge...

Aurs has another effing migraine today. I want to kill her head. It's pissing me off. It's taking my HLP away from me and I'm angry. We got to hang out a bit yesterday and had a lot of fun with the kids, but I'm still mad at her head today.

I'm sitting in Starbucks and it's my first trip here since last Thursday. Weird, I know. I even ate breakfast and lunch at home today. I must be sick. I should go see a doctor. Speaking of which, I need to make an appointment with a dermatologist and a family practice doc. **10 minute hiatus** Ok, just made an appointment with a new doc. I hope I like her. The rest of them suck! Anyone know any good dermatologists in Salt Lake?I'm listening to Joss Stone right now. I love that woman! I'd really like to know when her new album is coming out. I just found a fan site that says it's being released in July.... God I hope so.... I can't wait much longer. And that will hopefully mean she'll be going on tour in the US as well. If she does, you can bet your asses I (and Odum) will be going to see her. If you want to join us, let's go!

Auri had a good idea to start doing posts on our toes every time we do them.... I think we're both going to participate. We'll see how it goes. Also, I broke my effing big toe nail the other day trying to get a toy out of the basket for Fergie. Damn, ungrateful dog! The most shocking part of it all??? I haven't even tried to fix it! I know, I'm losing my touch.

On Friday night I went to Lindsey and Jason's wedding with Noelle and Maddie. I decided to wear my new brown capris and didn't have time to de-hair my legs.... so I just did the bottom halves of my calves.... That's all anyone saw anyway! I still haven't finished them, or done my arms. Auri even commented on how hairy (for me) my arms were yesterday. I'll get on it in the next day or two. I did manscape yesterday though, so that has to count for something!

My skin looks ridiculous. I've a got severe acneic breakout on my cheeks and I look like a prepubescent teenager. It sucks. I had a revelation about it though... I think it might be from my Dermalogica products. *GASP* I know. I'm kind of heartbroken about it, too, but I'm going to not use them for a while and see if my skin clears up. I might even go buy some Proactiv today cuz I'm out of my stuff I've been using. Aaaahhhhh!!!!

Well, that'll about do it for today. Hope you're all having a fabu week!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

San Diego - The Rest of the Story

There are multiple Holiday Inns around San Diego. Is it strange that every time we passed one we all broke into song? "Ho-tel. Mo-tel. Holiday Iiiiiiin!" Yeah, I didn't think so, either.

We've been back for two weeks and four days, do you think it's about time I finish the damn story!?

I left off in Rose's room... By the way, did I mention that Saturday was Rose's birthday? I can't remember... She got ready and then we headed back to our hotel so Noelle and I could get ready. We decided we should call a cab for a ride to the restaurant because we all wanted to drink. Noelle actually hailed a cab on the road and we hopped in. The driver was really great... didn't drive like a maniac, cracked jokes and was fun to chat with. Naturally we asked for his number so he could come pick us up when we were ready to go back.I looked at the paper he gave me and asked what his name was because I couldn't read it very well. The man's name is Hiis (pronounced: hees)... and that's when the jokes began. Not because he was a jerk, just because we liked his name and it entertained us. I think Noelle was the first... "Hiis nice," (read: He's nice), and that's how it went for the rest of the night.We had reservations at Cafe Coyote so we were sat right away. The drinks came out quickly and the dinner followed shortly thereafter. The food is good, the drinks are huge and the service isn't bad, either. Our server was really cute and brought Rose a flan then sent the mariachi band over to sing Happy Birthday to her. The candle on the flan was actually a strip of a tortilla chip they lit on fire... kinda funny.After dinner we took a walk up the road and looked in a few of the little shops. I ended up buying shot glasses to bring to a few peeps at home (and after I got home I read the sticker on the bottom that said: Caution - This item contains lead and may be hazardous to your health - or something like that). Oh well, it's the thought that counts, right? We called Hiis to come back for us and he drove us back to our hotel. I was fine to drive (apparently alcohol doesn't affect me anymore... I guess I'll just stop drinking) so we hopped in the car and headed to Rose's to grab the map for the marathon the next morning. Did I mention I love that Chrysler 300?We decided to take a walk on the beach when we got back to Rose's because we didn't think we'd have time the next day... and if the sun isn't out, it doesn't really matter if you walk on the beach during the day or at night. For those of you who know me, I couldn't care less if I stuck my toe in the water or not, so the three of us walked down on the sand, but Rosie was the only one who went to the water. There's so much seaweed and crap on the beach in Cali that I didn't want to be standing in it. And God knows how I love when things happen to me in the ocean. I'll share those stories another time. This was our self-portrait on the beach. Noelle and I left Rose in her room and headed back to our hotel. We got all packed so we could head out first thing in the morning. Did I mention Sunday was reserved for marathon activities? We decided to be to the 13 mile marker by 8:30 so Rose came to our hotel around 8 (if I remember correctly) and we checked out and headed toward Maddie. We actually parked the car at the Mall and walked up to Friars Road right before the 12 mile marker but it all worked out. We waited for about 35 minutes and started getting nervous that we'd missed her. We saw all the crazy dressed-up people... there was a guy with a Nemo fish hat on, another one dressed up in a banana costume and a flock of Elvi. It was the Rock & Roll Marathon so we saw a lot of people dressed up as Elvis, but the Flock of Elvi was the best.... Maddie and her girls came running down the road a bit after 9 AM and we were sooo excited and happy to see her! We all got a little teary. We're a sad bunch, we know! I cropped the pics so you can see them a bit easier. After all of that she said she didn't see us. We were kinda bummed about it, but oh well, whatcha gonna do?! The three of us (who Maddie lovingly nicknamed the Witches of Eastwick) went to Starbucks to grab some food and coffee. Noelle had to wait in line at Sbux to use the bathroom. The dude in front of her went in with a ginormous backpack and a towel... and he didn't come out for about 20 minutes. We think he showered, shaved and got ready for the day while he was in there. Gross!

From Sbux we headed for the designated parking lot so we could catch a shuttle to the Marathon Finish Line. We parked where we were supposed to but there were no shuttles or a Trolley to be seen. So what did we do? We got in a rikshaw. And that, my friends, was my breaking point, the final straw, the end of my huge ass as I know it. The poor guy (who's name was Marcello, and he was from Brazil {or Brathil}) huffed and puffed and worked his ass off carrying our asses up the hill. We got passed by numerous other rikshaws and were so thoroughly embarrassed by the time it was over we all wanted to die. I nearly jumped out at multiple points along the road. The dude made $45 dollars, but still, he worked for it. We apologized when we got off.The finish line for the marathon was inside the Marine Corps Recruit Depot and we couldn't be happier to be surrounded by multitudes of sexy men! We got searched, hopped on a shuttle to take us further inside, and then made our way to our spot at the finish line. About 45 minutes later, Maddie crossed it! She finished at 5 hours and 32 minutes, but is accounting for about 30 minutes for water, snack and potty breaks. I couldn't be more proud of her, and I haven't even know her for that long!We hung around there for a while, Maddie decided to head back to the hotel with her team, and we grabbed a shuttle back to the parking lot (hey, where was it when we needed it the first time?). While we were standing in line for the shuttle we saw a guy with a shirt on that said "I thought you said this was 2.62 miles." Noelle and I dropped Rosie at the airport and then headed to grab lunch and see Maddie after her race. The hotel they stayed in was great and we decided we should stay there next time! The plane ride home wasn't as uncomfortable as it was on the way down, so that made the evening a little more tolerable!

Note: The three of us also decided we are The Trifecta, and whenever we're in the same city together, shitty weather will ensue. No more traveling as a threesome, I guess!
Here are a few of our men in uniform... we got to oogle them while we waited for the shuttle...

And there you have it... all the trips have been accounted for. Now it's time to start planning the next one... Who wants to go to Vegas? Or back to San Diego? Maybe the weather will cooperate this time!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Wednesday, July 1st - It's On!!!

Hey kids! Here's the deal... if you live in Salt Lake and enjoy a good drink, I better be seeing your asses on July 1st. Why July 1st, you ask? It's because that is the day that the Private Club law goes out the door. And City Weekly is throwing one huge ass party in the form of a Pub Crawl... in fact, the biggest one in Salt Lake's history. If you want all the info straight from the source, go watch this video. If you're willing to get your information from me, then here you go:

Who: All y'all
What: Biggest Pub Crawl in Salt Lake history
When: July 1st (not sure what time)
Where: 16 Bars across the Wasatch Front
Why: Why the hell not?!

City Weekly is hosting the party... They have rented Le Bus, and not just one, but six (6), yes SIX of them that will form a "transit system" and will run in 30 minute intervals between all the bars. That way we (you and I) may experience as many bars as possible without having to worry about transportation, or pay money to get in the door! And better yet... at the end of the night, City Weekly will also foot the bill for your cab rides home! Yes, you heard me correctly...

No more private club membership dues required
No cost to ride Le Bus to and from all the bars
No cost for a cab to take our drunk asses home at the end of the evening

I cannot think of a better way to celebrate the death of the dumbest law in existence, and to check out all the bars we've been wanting to see. Too bad the drinks aren't free...
So who's with me?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I Want To Be a Loser

I'm half-tempted to re-start my weight loss blog. Maybe I can do weekly updates. If I do, I'll keep it private and invite people to read it.... half because I don't want the world to see it, and half because I'm not so sure that many people would be interested. Let me know if you're interested in keeping tabs on me...

Weight is not something I've really ever discussed on my blog and I'm not sure why. Maybe because I think that if I don't think/talk/write about it, it will all just miraculously go away. Or maybe because I'm too much of a coward. I don't know.

I think it might also have to do with the fact that my blog showcases me for who I am... and has nothing to do with what I look like. Except for all the pictures I choose to post. This allows me to control how much of me you see and get to know. And really, you're getting pretty much all of it... you see me when I'm happy, sad, raw, angry, and neurotically obsessed. You get all of the emotions - those I never hold back. But you haven't ever really seen the most tender part of me. Why I decided to start writing this 15 minutes ago is beyond me, but I am. I guess I'm reaching out, because at this point, I feel like I need all the support I can get.

I saw my therapist last week (yes I have a therapist, and yes I see her regularly, and yes I adore her - I think I've mentioned this before) and had a weight-related Coming To Jesus talk. Since I'm not religious and I tend to have a lot of revelations while in therapy, I should rename them Coming to LaDonna talks. Anyway... she said something to me that really hit home. I can't remember the exact words she said, and I'm not going to share them with you because they're private (and I don't pay her so you can reap the benefits) but they really resonated with me. And it was more because she just laid things out on the table and didn't try to make me feel better about it. Basically, she said it's time to shit or get off the pot.

No one can make me happy but me, and while I've said this over and over in the past, it finally means something. Not that it didn't have meaning before, but it's a lot more relevant at this point in my life. I'm 29 years old. I've done all (well, most) of the things a single girl can do. I had fun in high school. I went to college and got a Bachelor's degree. I worked, dated and played for a few years. I went back to school to pursue a Master's degree. I completed that last year and got a great job. I own my car and am in the process of trying to buy a house.

The last major item on my list of things to do is get married and maybe have a kid, or two. Now all I have to do is find a wonderful man to share the rest of my life with. While some people may say this is the last item on their list of things to do, it's at the top of mine. And the only thing standing in my way is my weight, for two reasons: 1) I let my weight and all my issues surrounding it hold me back, and 2) Men are not attracted to big girls. And as much as I'd like to say "Fuck You!" to all the men who judge me for what I look like and aren't attracted to me for who I am, it's not going to get me anywhere. This is who I am. I've let this stand in my way for far too long and it's time to get my shit in gear.

I don't think this is going to be easy by any means, but I also don't think it's going to be as hard as it used to be. The thing is, it doesn't have to be hard (I'm just trying to channel LaDonna here). This is no longer something that I need to do. It's not an agenda item anymore. This is now my number one priority in obtaining my ultimate happiness. My weight is the only thing standing between me and the next couple of big goals on my list, and I really don't want to die without having fulfilled them!

Well, there you have it... (see what happens when I don't post for 4 days) All of me on a platter for your viewing pleasure. Please be gentle...