Seriously... what is my problem? What is my problem, you're asking?! (I just realized I've been asking a lot of rhetorical questions lately. Is that technically a rhetorical question? I don't know that I even know what a rhetorical quesiton actually is. My mom said that the other day and my brother spattered off the definition of a rhetorical question, which is totally unlike him).
ANYWAY... My problem is that I have anxiety about looking at my checking account online. Looking at the "recent activity" and balance causes me severe anxiety. And that's just on the days when my balance isn't in the hole. So I'll periodically get an insufficient funds notice in the mail indicating that I've overdrawn my account (thank the Lord for overdraft protection) and get whacked with a $25 fee from the bank. Which is better than bouncing a check, but whatever. What the hell is wrong with me that I can't bring myself to check my account?! I get anxiety about how little money I have, which is stupid, because knowing exactly how much money I have would completely eliminate the full-blown, cracked-out panic attacks I have when I realize I'm in the hole, and have overdraft fees on top of the "in the hole" balance. I need to get my shit together.
I just had to vent about myself and my psychoses to myself (and all you wonderful bloggers out there)... and now I feel slightly better. Kind of. So I think I'll do a new, completely unrelated post. Because who wants to taint (yes, I just said taint) a fun post with a post about panic attacks from lack of funds...
ANYWAY... My problem is that I have anxiety about looking at my checking account online. Looking at the "recent activity" and balance causes me severe anxiety. And that's just on the days when my balance isn't in the hole. So I'll periodically get an insufficient funds notice in the mail indicating that I've overdrawn my account (thank the Lord for overdraft protection) and get whacked with a $25 fee from the bank. Which is better than bouncing a check, but whatever. What the hell is wrong with me that I can't bring myself to check my account?! I get anxiety about how little money I have, which is stupid, because knowing exactly how much money I have would completely eliminate the full-blown, cracked-out panic attacks I have when I realize I'm in the hole, and have overdraft fees on top of the "in the hole" balance. I need to get my shit together.I just had to vent about myself and my psychoses to myself (and all you wonderful bloggers out there)... and now I feel slightly better. Kind of. So I think I'll do a new, completely unrelated post. Because who wants to taint (yes, I just said taint) a fun post with a post about panic attacks from lack of funds...
4 comments:
We WILL start using our check registers again! Why did we stop?? That's what I want to know?!
i freak out over my account balance too. everyone does every once in a while.
if you end up in jersey, definitely let me know! otherwise, maybe we can meet up in vegas.
Everyone freaks out about money. I freak out about everything. lol
OH MY! I DREAD logging in some times, so much that I log in and click back to another page so that I don't have to see it. Then I close my eyes and click back to my credit union page and cringe until I see what it says. LOL
HAHAHA! My word verification is swineses! No swine flu HERE! lol
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