I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed, underwhelmed, emotional, closed off, loved, unloved and everything in between these days.
I started seeing someone and everything was pretty gung-ho in the beginning. Now I'm getting mixed signals from him and I'm not sure what to think.
I went over to my parents' house today to drop off the dog. I was helping them put away some of the Christmas decorations when they got into an arguement. It was then I realized how utterly happy I am that I have my own house and don't have to deal with crap like that anymore. Yeah, I'm 30 years old, but it still upsets me quite a bit to see or hear my parents fight. I went in the house, got my purse and said goodbye. I told my mom that I'm not coming over anymore. She responded by telling me to tell that to my dad. I let her know it was because of both of them and I'm hoping that simple statement got my point across. I'm pretty sure it upset her, but I'm not really that concerned at the moment.
I came home from my massage tonight and had every intention of chilling by myself. I really wanted to just curl up with my book and read for a few hours. Or blog and get some things off my chest. The thought of cleaning or doing things around the house crossed my mind, but didn't really hit a chord with me. So what did I do when I got home? I brought all the boxes in from the garage and go them emptied along with the few that were in the office. I really wanted to spend the night reading, but I'm beyond happy that I got all my shit put away!
I'm in the middle of reading Eat Pray Love and I'm really liking it. I'm not very far into it but I have half a mind to pack my shit and head to Italy. What could be better, really? I can't wait to see what the rest of the book has to offer. A little spiritual guidance, perhaps... or maybe a revelation of some sort. I'm not sure, we'll see what happens... I'll let you know how it goes.
Ok, enough venting for now. Ciao!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
The Swirlings Around in My Head
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I hate when my parents fight too. I hope your parents took what you said for consideration and try to fix things.:)
Ps. I wanna go to Italy and just sit under the sun all day with good coffees and a gorgeous Italian guy :p
That book will have you day dreaming about things you never thought you would want to do in a million years. Enjoy it!!
Hang in there sweetie! Men are just confused sometimes. They can't always be as straight forward as a woman! hahahaha! I too hate it when my parents fight!
That was venting? There were no cuss words, why does that make me a little disappointed? And I think everyone focused on the boy and family stuff (but really I hope that all pans out in the good for you) and skimmed over the fact that you got a message and I'm extremely jealous.
i must have missed the venting... or else, you are VERY calm when you vent
Do you know how many times I have thought lately about picking up and moving somewhere far away? I am sooo with you honey. But, as some wise asshole once said, this too shall pass. Our lives are going to get awesome. Eventually ;)
I heard that book is fantastic. It might be next on my list.
Men are stupid. That's all I have to say. But in my situation, it was reversed.
I'm so glad my parents got divorced this year. The fighting was ridiculous. That's why I was glad to get accepted to a university far away and never had to go home often.
Well, when I get mixed signals when I am listening to the radio, I usually look for a better channel! :)
Goodluck with the new guy.
I guess I need to check out Eat, Play, Love and read it.
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