I'm Ready

So, I'm a little late being that it's Thursday, but the fact that I was inspired enough to blog again this week should suffice.

So I've come to realize that... I'm done.
Done with traveling.
Done with running all the time.
Done with living in a hotel.
Done with being alone.

I'm ready to settle down.
I want a job at home.

I want to be able to go home after my day at work is over.
I want to get married.
I want to stay at home and not have to worry about packing my bags for my next trip.
I just want to sit on the couch and chill with my man.

I'm also ready for the changes that all those things entail.
I'm ready to make sacrifices.
I'm ready to make the hard decisions.

Because, ultimately, I'm ready to have my own life.
I'm tired of being "the kid."
I'm tired of being "the friend."
I'm tired of being the odd man out.

For the last few months, I've felt like I've been in a holding pattern. That I don't necessarily have my "own life." I've never felt like having a man in my life would complete me, but that being said, I'm more than ready for that next step. I've accomplished all the other big goals I've set for myself and getting married is just the next thing on my list.

I look at my parents and realize that they have their life together. I'm still their child, but not ultimately part of that equation anymore. Auri and Trent have their life together. Cassi and Chuck have theirs. And so on...

My ideas here haven't exactly come out as originally planned, so I'll probably elaborate on them later... but at least I've put it out there. I needed to get that off my chest.